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Saturday, November 6th, 2010
5:42 am	Deadline Ninja Copy of an email I just sent to the person I usually communicate with on academic-related concerns. Note that I don't check my email every five minutes like everyone else apparently does, so it's not at all uncommon for me to miss emails until the day after they've been received (or several days, if it's a particularly slow time of year). I've kept here a bit that I decided not to include in the message I sent, because it sounded more appropriate for a livejournal entry. Because hey, whining is what I typically use this for, is it not? ( My Email, including one I received and forwarded with mine... ) Just another bit of information... this is my fifth year of college. I started out in physics, it kicked my face, and I didn't pick a major until I had no choice last semester, and it turned into French because that's what I had the most of that had a major. There's a rant in that topic, but I'm sure noone wants to read it. I mean, I doubt anyone wanted to read this, either, but at least this is a bit more understandable. Current Mood: cynical (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 4th, 2010
6:43 am	Balance I originally posted this on a forum thread, then decided I might as well post it somewhere slightly more public. (not that anyone actually reads these, but eh. ^^ ) So, at the end of Aikido last night, my Japanese-turned-Aikido teacher wound up giving a short talk on... well... How school and our society in general are big on making work the most important thing in life. And how that's simply a terrible idea. He talked about how, when he was training in Japan, his sensei would say that it's important to balance three things: work, personal interests, and family. I'm quite glad to hear someone else say that. XD. A typical eight hour workday, with an average of eight hours of sleep (we're talking healthy, here) leaves only eight hours for anything else. Of course, the typical eight hour workday comes with five days a week. So assuming that people get the recommended amount of sleep (pfft, I know most of you don't. :P), that's 40 hours of work, 56 hours of sleep, and 72 hours of whatever else in one week. So, arguably that'd be 72 hours of freetime, overpowering the 40 hours of work by a longshot. Except most people don't have such a clean-cut schedule. And 72 hours comes down to less than 2×40, and the idea was that each of those three categories--work, fun, family--should receive equal weight. In theory, that is pretty close, though. In practice, people's sleep habits confuse me immensely, and a lot of people (especially students, but applies to various professional jobs as well) wind up working more than forty hours a week, whether with overtime, take-home projects, homework, studying, Etc. In a way it's funny. We're supposed to work really hard in school so we don't have to work anywhere near as hard afterward. (Oh, and contribute to society. That's good, too.) I know that I personally would have a difficult time figuring out how balanced any of these things are for me, just because whether I am involved in either category is questionable. But I still like that this concept is more than an answer I gave when reporters put me on the spot four and a half years ago. XD (How the fish did I get so Japanese? :-/ ) Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Monday, September 6th, 2010
11:15 am	CAPCHAs gradually improving! So, I just noticed today that Proboards changed their CAPCHA system to be... ur... accessible. I mean, sure, CAPCHAs don't really work, but eh, if it makes people feel safer... ... But in the past, I have railed against them for one extremely simple reason: I can't see them, therefore they disenfranchise me. It seems that trend has been kicked in the face, as more and more are being changed to be accessible to people without 20-20 vision. Now, a test, if you will. I want to see if the homestarrunner wiki has picked up this trend. I have not yet checked at the time of writing this sentence... but will have by the next. You are required to enter a code from an image in order to perform certain operations. This image is designed to protect the site from vandalism. If the images are too obscured to read, just give it your best shot and a new image will be shown next time. If you are visually impaired or limited to text-based browsing, you can contact the site administrator and something can be arranged. The code is not case-sensitive. Awwe, fail! And we were sooooo close... :P Eh, the mere fact that I can post as a guest on proboards forums is awesome enough to warrant celebration. On a slightly less happy and more why-the-hell-should-anyone-care note, I'm apparently moving within the month. Having stayed in the same place since I was four makes this not to my liking. My sollution is to think about it as little as possible. o_o. Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 29th, 2010
8:06 am	Eye-living Let's use the Daizenshuu EX forums to illustrate a point. People don't give two craps about things that don't have pretty pictures attached to them. Let's go for a simple, not-so-personal example: A blind user (not me) posts something a blind friend (not me) made - Besides me, only one other user replied. And it was "How do you use computers?" Pfargtl. Let's look at this one, which I do take very personally, and seems to illustrate the point very well: Blind boy plays Sparking Neo - Everyone's like, "Ooh, that's amazing! How does he do it?" Umm, I've been answering that question quite noticeably for months before this video was posted. I put my visual situation in my signature so I wouldn't have to constantly point it out. And people still don't get it. Why did anyone care about this story? There was a video, that's why! I replied to the thread with a few details on the things people asked about, and noone seemed to care at all. The thread died shortly there after. But notice that there are like, four or five people involved, here, now that there's a pretty video. To add insult to injury, in a later thread, someone responds to my posting a link to FreedomScientific by asking ("not to be rude") if I'm visually challenged. This same person posted in the thread with the video, a thread in which I made my situation very clear... without the use of any images. Pfargtl. Not too long ago, I wrote up a break-down of the accessibility in DBZ video games. Two responses. First one: "Oh, that's cool. I heard about a guy that played Ocarina of Time because his friends made an audio walkthrough.". Second "You should try it." Pfargtl. And then we have this little gem: I ask for help with graphics in a game. I put a great deal of effort into writing this so that it wasn't off-putting, and tried to get someone to look at it before I posted it to make sure it was acceptable. Responses: "Ur, here are some sprite websites." -- That I cannot use, certainly not on my own. And the other: "I don't know what's going on." Oh, but let's take it one step further! The guy that gave me links to some sprite websites posted this: "Some spritework" Responses were "Woah! Awesome! Can I help?" From no less than three people. Very, very, quickly. This guy is just toying with Fightermaker2002 and posted a few pictures. I have a game that is 99% complete, other than the graphics. So in conclusion, Screw you guys, I'm goin' home. Current Mood: pissed off (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2010
6:49 am	Summer2008: My primary laptop died. Then I made a Fighting system I could actually do stuff with. And then tried to make a Planet Seva / Herendil game with it. Keep in mind that this system has 0 graphics. About a year later I decided to make a GU game with the same system. Currrently trying to get graphics for it, keeping in mind that I am physically incapable of summoning sprites for extent characters. And noone cares. Would be fine if I could see the blasted screen. Meanwhile, school 2008 was horribly unfulfilling, despite that my grades turned out decent and people said it was my best semester ever. Bah, no. Very disappointing. Mostly on my part. Same semester, people decide that I need to see a speech pathologist. What the.......... Same semester, people in our swordfighting group kinda make a hangout-at-someone's-apartment session audible in such a capacity that I decide 'pfargtl it' and attempt to make my way there, with absolutely know idea where it is. One of the newbies spots me shortly after leaving and solves that problem. And then I sit in a chair for several hours doing nothing what-so-ever. Ok, So Dr. Horrible's Sing-along blog was entertaining, I suppose. All this while the most troubling things continue to be troubling. 2009. I retake Short Fiction to try and erase the F from 2007. This time, I actually put in effort on most everything. Despite being incredibly unyielding and hard to figure out on most things, the teacher ultimately told me to get the final paper in a week later than everyone else. So I work on it quite a lot, forget that my Chinese clas isn't meeting the morning it's due and wind up sitting in the classroom for a while, and wind up deciding to take an idea break. Which ... took way too long. She wanted it in by noon. I got it in by five. Now, I've heard people say negative things about this teacher and her attitude, and haven't really seen any of it myself. But her response was basically saying that I didn't care enough to do anything. On a number of occasions, I'm told, for differing classes, mind... "That was a big 'F You' to the teacher." "You're blowing *her* off." "You just like playing games..." Fuck that, and fucking hell, jaws just died. Same semester. Chinese class took a trip to Chicago Chinatown. I decided to go. It's the kind of thing that's worth doing once, but I don't have any desire to do it again. One night while there I went to the one room in the hotel where everyone was gathered and just... doing their thing. You know, sitting in a circle playing drinking games and occasionally doing something hilarious. How.............. pointless. Oh, and the speech pathology thing continues. Up to last week, possibly into the future. So I get fed up with all of it and see the school counselor that semester. Unfortunately nothing comes of this. Summer 2009. I make a bunch of textmaps for different games, record a lot of audio for various uses, see most of Kingdom Hearts, and... well, ok, that's about it. Summer 2008 and summer 2009 = win. Summer 2007 had the big Azuria convention, and that's about it. Summer 2006 had nothing but death destruction and the occasional me making a furbey dance to Hikari no Will Power. Oh, and ... Ah, I'll save that. Fall 2009. I realize that if an assignment is simply "write something relevant", with no further direction, I can't do it. So I wound up failing an entire class on that primace. But I made up for the W1 credit that Short Fiction cost me by taking the writing exam, proving that I can, in fact, write when I know what to write about. That very same problem persists into Spring 2010. Fortunately, there are only four papers. For this one class. Making up the vast majority of my grade. 86 percent, infact. The only one that came in on time was the one that was packaged with a test. The second one... I didn't know what I was supposed to do, and reading what I turned in (also late) apparently convinced the teacher of that, and he said I could turn in both of the next two papers on the same date, and sent sample papers as a guide. The hardest part is still figuring out what to do. Doing it is the easy part, once it gets started. Starting still hurts. But the idea part has been the hardest. I got the rewritten second paper in before the second deadline. The third was a day late, but I still got an A on it. I spent the last three days struggling to figure out what to do with the last one, and managed to squeeze something out yesterday evening. It's a day late again, and nowhere near as solid as the previous two. But I don't know what else to do with it, calculated that it's not likely to cost me the course, and am just plain sick and tired of papers--with absolutely no disrespect to the class or the teacher (say otherwise and I will probably find a way to kick you . Arrest me if you wish, 'cause I am not joking.). I had to drop a class this semester to avoid a repeat of the 2009 fall class where figuring out what to write was what killed me. None of ... None of this has anything to do with me liking or disliking the class or the teacher. Not that anyone else seems to get that. Fricken dumbasses. Yeah, profanity. This pisses me off. "You just have so much anger...!". Oh, yeah. Because you put it htere by repeating that over and over again with a bunch of bullshit accusations that I ought to throw something at you for! FUUUUUCK!!! The way my credits have lined up, I've got another year left, and need to take an extra course, probably in the summer, to make the major. Which is French. Bloody freaking fish... Positives? I'm redoing Taoe in Virtual series format ( http://planetseva.com/taoe/ ). I think I'm going to go work on that now. Well, I mean save this in a text file and restart and post it, because Jaws died. LJ does auto-saving. But... Blah! Jaws that doesn't crap out costs as much as a new computer. Being visually impaired in both eyes sucks. Being over 11 years old sucks. College sucks. Society doesn't make sense. How would one define friends, anyway? Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Monday, April 7th, 2008
12:26 am	Fighting cliches *whistles* Hmm. April's off to a... u... mm... ... start. Nah, actually, I don't feel remotely like going into half of the stuff that's happened. (Really, there hasn't been that much... though what there has been has been significant-ish... and... I'm closing the window because cigarette smoke is apparently reaching it... >.<). Ur, yeah, where was I? I think my sleep schedule is off by nearly twelve hours. Like, had yesterday (and hey, it's after midnight, so I'm referring to Sunday) been a not-weekend-day, I'd have slept through all of my classes. Umm... excuse me? When did this mess happen? Wasn't it a year ago that... umm... no, no. It was December. December, this was not an issue. This semester is clearly the worst in the history of forever. (Logical falasy~!). ... Which is worse: being ignored, or being acknowledged so that people don't feel guilty for ignoring you? So for the past three evenings I *gasp* went out and got food from somewhere other than the cafeteria by myself. (Mainly a timing thing, but.. . that's not all...). At first it was.... hmm... vaguely dramatic, as in "If not for the fact that I like to look at things from multiple angles, it'd be something like the tagline for the pullups commercials, except I know full well how stupid that is". Needless to say, that didn't last long. *clearly has security issues* ^_^. This is a bit more significant than I'd like, though... Hehehe. Thursday kind of forced me to get through that mental block I have on finishing certain types of things, and while I was completely aware of the textbook/novel/anythingOtherThanRealLife nature of this, I tried to use that to convince myself that I could do all the other stuff that needs doing (or wants doing, whatever). So... connecting Thursday with Friday and Saturday was something I sorta kinda did (though in reality I was fully aware of how corny and unbelievable all of that is), and... still didn't accomplish jack today. I guess I did some stuff yesterday. And a little Friday. Over all, this storybook illusion isn't acting quickly enough for my tastes. I came across an interview with the creators of a flash game called 'N' (Platform puzzle game starring a ninja with realistic physics and stuff), and that gave me some serious ideas on how to rework things I've been trying to do. So I took notes, and did some proliminary variable-defining for a couple java classes. And I think somewhere in there I revised a song I started in what... 2004? (Well, I'd had the melody in mind for way longer). But... what got me about the N interview was that it was said to have taken around six weeks, with two weeks for each "layer", so to speak (with a good deal of the physics engine preexisting). As we should all know by now, whenever I set dates for myself, I inevitably fail at what I'm seeking to accomplish... but dangit, nothing's stopping me from releasing something awesome every six weeks! Heck, I'd consider that kinda slow depending on the type of product (naturally games and well-written novels aren't going to build themselves in a week). So what have I done? ... I already said all of that. Three days... all I have to show is a list of variables, some notes, a midi and poor dietary decisions. (I think the last one there is more important than ever... I've noticed in the past week my thoughts completely deserting me way more often and irretrievably than ever before... it's... frightening and annoying.). What the heck kind of post is this? Am I insane enough that I'm actually considering putting this gargle mess somewhere that the general internet pedestrian can view it? Why? O.O. Current Mood: stackOverflow (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 19th, 2008
2:42 am	273 licks to the tootsieroll center "To validate this comment, showing us that you are human, and not a computer, please retype the following code in the field provided." Let me revise that for you... "To validate this comment, showing us that you are a human with really good vision, and not a computer or anyone whose vision happens to suck to the extent that looking at a computer screen is more painful than useful, please retype the following code in the field provided." Humanity has issues. What am I doing complaining about myself? XD ... My sleep schedule is completely out of wack. (no thanks to people waking me up mid afternoon... which happens to be _after_ the things I need to be awake for...). Umm... and as usual, some inexplicable force stays my hand at completing things. I'm convinced for some reason that being significantly shorter would help correct this. *confused* Oh, and... Rovang is back with a fan series! ... I'm bored now. Several... hours... later... Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
2:45 pm	Return of the Caejones Two posts in the same day? Umm... I'm not full of random amusing interjections today... Well, if we have an emo-tastic day, what better to do than get hit out of the blue with a plot twist? Today's plot twist: Chuckey Cheese. Umm... Chuck E. Whatever. Mouse, pizza, indoor playground and games. "Where a kid can be a kid." Well, unless that kid happens to be me. But I didn't actually come to complain about that. :P But sure: there's plenty of reason for the emo-ness if it involves me going to Chuckey Cheese's. Now, I was never much into the games there; maybe there'd be one or two that got my interest (TMNT Pachinko machine FTW!), but my place was always the playset. Why the heck do I feel so out of place, and why does it matter? Anyway... the fact that I wound up sitting in the same spot for the whole hour and a half or however long we were there left room for much reflection. Actually, what got me thinking on it was really that my left eye gets rather matted rather often since it's still in limited-edition never-removed-from-box condition... though I think today my eyelashes are just acting weird. Anyway, it was bugging me enough that I wanted to part it while there, with no one else in the immediate area, and I was at first wondering if maybe any of the random people in the area might consider messing with my eyelashes like... I don't know... politically incorrect or something. And then it occured to me that something like that never would have stopped me fifteen years ago on something so trivial. And it became rather apparent that ever since that whole identity thing started back in 2000, it's been like I've had something to prove--first to myself, but I don't really know to who by 2007. The thing is, we very quickly lose track of what that even is. It was all wrong from the beginning. You don't make your vehavior accent the personality you want to have--you be who you want to be and _then_ everything changes to fit that. Since I'm here, I'll mention hotmail. So after getting frustrated with Juno, and fed up with Freeservers inability to realize that maybe a visually impaired person is using their services, and all around just deciding that a new Email address would be useful, I decided to try and get a hotmail account. Guess what? Image verification! Guess what else? I still got an account all by myself! But it took several tries. -.-. Whoever wrote the signup page knew what they were doing, that's for sure. It's very newbie friendly without being overly cluttered, and for the most part it's specific on what should be given in each field. Oh, and of course there's the audio part. Now, that worked out better than the one I yelled at in my previous post. But it's still very difficult to hear (which was intentional, probably), and Jaws kept moving to the numbers field and anouncing it in the middle of the numbers, which led to me muting the synthesizer (which isn't something I ever do when using IE unless I'm recording off of my GU soundtest... which still sounds better in JS than java, sadly enough). But none of that is really a problem for the page itself. What got me was that there are ten numbers in the audio version, but eight in the visual version. That's all fine, except they didn't mention that until after I wound up trying other things... And I haven't seen error messages that explain what went wrong. I put in information once, twice (this is when I decided the '8's in the audio sounded like a rooz(SP?!) and went with 8 digits; that's when something actually changed and it told me the audio was supposed to have ten after all). Then the third time it finally worked... I still don't know what went wrong the first two times. But whatever. Hotmail is much more jaws-friendly than Juno, and lately Yahoo!'s been having some annoying lag, at least on the Jaws-side of things. I will reserve other judgments though until... umm... I... actually... find a use for Email. :'(. So I still want to know what I'm afraid of. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
4:45 am	GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! Confirmation of registration To prevent automated registrations the board requires you to enter a confirmation code. The code is displayed in the image you should see below. If you are visually impaired or cannot otherwise read this code please contact the Board Administrator. Image Verification Please enter the six letters or digits that appear in the image opposite.   Registration Image Refresh Image Your changes will be visible immediately. If you would like to test or practice editing, please do so in the sandbox. You are encouraged to create, expand, and improve upon articles; however, bad edits to articles are watched for and will be quickly removed. Summary:   CAPTCHA Image Image Code:   Save your changes [alt-s] alt+s Preview your changes, please use this before saving! [alt-p] alt+p Show which changes you made to the text. [alt-v] alt+v Cancel | Editing help (opens in new window) You are required to enter a code from an image in order to perform certain operations. This image is designed to protect the site from vandalism. If the images are too obscured to read, just give it your best shot and a new image will be shown next time. If you are visually impaired or limited to text-based browsing, you can contact the site administrator and something can be arranged. The code is not case-sensitive. Username:     Password:     Retype password:     E-mail:   E-mail address is optional, but it enables others to contact you through your user or user_talk page without needing to reveal your identity.   Remember my login on this computer   CAPTCHA Image Image Code:     Create account table end You are required to enter a code from an image in order to perform certain operations. This image is designed to protect the site from vandalism. If the images are too obscured to read, just give it your best shot and a new image will be shown next time. If you are visually impaired or limited to text-based browsing, you can contact the site administrator and something can be arranged. The code is not case-sensitive. Registering a free account takes only a few seconds, and has many benefits. It does not take only a few seconds if you have to go find someone else to do it for you because you're a helpless little invalid... >.<. Choose username: Used only for identification by SMF.   Email: This must be a valid email address.     Hide email address from public? Choose password:   Verify password:   Visual verification: Type the letters shown in the picture Type the letters shown in the picture   Listen to the letters | Request another image *gets out headphones* *clicks listen* IE: "Did you notice the information bar?" Did you notice my CroBar? *kicks security button until it turns off* Play again Close window Having problems hearing this? Try a direct link to it. </blockquote> "This website wants to run the following add-on:..." Pfargtl that, enable the thing! "Do you want to run this active X control?" Umm, duh! K. G. V. *types into the box* *then listens again to make sure* An Error Has Occurred! The letters you typed don't match the letters that were shown in the picture. *Somehow materializes twin swords* You know, there are four newly acquired video games I've gotten to play since Christmas 2007. Fighting games, at that... and games I have done extensive research on how to play prior to their acquisition. For the first time that has been a lot of worthless and all this has really been is an opportunity to get frustrated if I actually care about doing anything with them in the slightest. I'd like to remake the DBR movies to fit the "canon" version that I've been working out for the past year, and I've figured out a lot of the details on how to go about doing that. Except... I can't, because since the last movies (maybe during their filming) my vision has gotten to the point where I simply cannot do this unaided. (Actually... right now I can see this room a little better than I have for the past few days. Still can't really tell that the computer screen is even giving off light... wait... I think I see it, but I'm more aware of the fact that the direction of the screen hurts than what's visually happening there...). Yesterday I sent an Email to the administrator of a board I'd like to join, requesting assistance because I can't see the freaking verification images. I sent a far less detailed PM to someone a few minutes ago concerning the same subject (which pretty much is what prompted this post). Maybe I have issues that I can't really resolve on my own. Maybe I don't know anyone (at least not in range of non-digital contact) that I want to involve in this in the slightest at this point. Maybe I'd like to go somewhere (never mind the fact that there isn't really anywhere I can think of that I'd like to go) alone? Fancy that sometimes aloneness is good--sometimes it is the opposite of progressive (What? Congress has a lot of people, so that's not aloneness!). So would it not then be advisable that we could at some times, do things alone, and at others find assistance? And maybe the finding of assistance should be done alone? The past month has left me feeling way more helpless than ever before in my life. And it certainly looks like "Wah no one understands me!" / "No one cares!". But I'm not so absorbed in myself to believe any of it completely, especially since the universe by no means revolves around a whiny smart-ass good-for-nothing like me just because a few things bother me. Still, I don't like it. There might be 1-3 people on Earth that I know that I might trust with everything... but there's a chance they don't know who they are because I don't do anything. Oh, and there's the geographic factor. What the pfargtl am I afraid of, anyway? *looks through cnn.com for something worth the trip* "What recap would be complete without Britney Spears, Alberto Gonzales or the almighty iPhone?" Maybe one that actually has meaning for the betterment of society? Ok, Alberto Gonzales might be significant... sorta... "Quick Vote Are you glad the holidays are over?" What holidays? "The 12 Second Sequence As seen on The Today Show. Shrink your waist in 2 weeks." You realize that you can shrink your waist in twelve seconds without any of that hard work easily enough... it'd just involve something sharp, a lot of pain, bloodloss, and potential for death. Now, does anyone think the patient route might be better? Well, that was a waste of time. Oh, yeah... and Freeservers remodeled their email in December, thus making it impossible for me to use. Quite literally, I have tried and failed to read a single message at a planetseva.com email account, when I could read them--and if I was lucky, write them--before the "upgrade". And several accounts have vanished, and I can't even access the one I usually use because I had a redirect that fed to it... I think I'll close by comment-responding on the response to my previous post. Umm... assuming I can remember how LJ-cut works. ( In an LJ-cut! ) ... *sigh*. Current Mood: bitchy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
8:15 am	... <Wow, I wrote this several hours ago and then fell asleep? > You know, it's funny how things turn out, in an odd, "somehow I can look at this as though I'm not actually experiencing it" sort of way... (Yeah, I wish...). So, let's recap: ( life. . . ) Progression: n00b chibi of doom physically capable, mentally "still learning" Freak-out-"Where'd my me go?" Mentally "somewhat better", physically "DAAAAAAAMMMIIIIIIT!!!" And let's not even go into socially. Conclusion: If I could pick and choose personal aspects from any point in life and become the result of that collage, I'd probably do it. Note we're limiting ourselves to past and present--the future is a bit unknown to me at present. But I never pass up an opportunity to ramble on even longer. I wonder if I can use multiple LJ-cuts? < Emo-fest follows. > College: I want to learn. I don't care about degrees. GPA is now only useful for scollarships, it seems. And I think I've made my views on money quite clear. Ok, wiseguy... so what once that's done? Hah! Ok, I've got more time, but seriously... I don't see college as impacting what happens once I'm out all that much, other than "I don't suck so much at japanese, and my programming skills are actually useful now". Ok, admittedly those make a bit of difference... but! Does that mean I'm going to go work for some software company, work as a translator, or get wealthy off of stuff that I make? No, no, and no. Do I really care about that, though? No! I'm told a lot to prioritize. Ok, let's prioritize--how important is school compared to other things? Really? How important is money? Money is important so far as the internet and electricity are important--I can do without them easily, but they provide very valuable resources. Let's try this: what is more important than school? Didn't I answer this already? I'm all about balance, not levels of importance! But ok, let's play the game of priorities... There is evil somewhere between this keyboard and this chair. It needs to be destroyed. Not brushed off until it regenerates and attacks again, even if that has to happen a few times first--it must be iradicated! I don't even know how to do that... but I have an idea... But beyond that, there is something else... something related, yet different... Because let's face it, I just don't understand why this age range is so popular. I much prefer living in the single digits. Because that could actually qualify as living. Not so sure about this. No, no, I just plain hate this. So it's not as bad as it could be... but neither is the state of things in Iraq, and I still wouldn't want to live there at the moment. Oh look at me! I can reach really high places without something to stand o--Ah! But I have to be bent into something resembling a question mark 99% of the time... Oh, woe is me! I sit in this room all the time (almost). They say to get out and do something, but I can only guess at how! Need to find something interesting. How? Need to talk to people... umm... how? o_o. No, I think I know where I want to be... but every facet of reality is in agreement that it is really really really really really really really really really really really hard to get there. :'( Oh, woe is me! I'm so sick of being sarcastic all the time... I don't need to be funny. Just fun will do. Ah, the great paroble of the book whose pages are not in acord with its cover. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 5th, 2007
7:41 am	dAwesome / dT decreases on the interval nov1 to nov5 If October was yang, November is yin. From the moment November started it's been pretty much worse and worse... for no apparent reason. I guess I can blame some things on me just predicting that Thursday and the weekend would be less compared to the previous days, and there's also the fact that I did quite a lot on Wednesday... but what happened after that? There's still plenty to do... crap, now I'm quite behind with Java assignments (project ... hmm... I think it's ok. Not as far along as it should be, but acceptable I guess...), and I've got to find a way to complete an explorations assignment in the next few hours or else... and something for Japanese wouldn't hurt. Someone tell me why this happened? And someone tell me why there's a very very apparent connection to the calendar? -- Dates should have nothing to do with anything... So, what have I been doing for the past four days? Not much of anything. I made tiny amounts of progress on LC, but considering how pathetic most of that has been, that qualifies as non-progress... I guess I've got a few more midis that I didn't have a week ago, a couple made from scratch (Crap, was one of those this morning? I think it was...). And... that's it. NaNoWriMo = no. Late assignments = very yes. Blargh, emo weekend = unproductive. Is posting here helping? Not really. I imagine that once this week's podcast is recorded things will be a little better (granted that should be after classes today, so we have Tuesday to wade through), but... yeah... I still have a lot to pull out of thin air in the next four hours. Ah, and I forgot French stuff again. *sigh*. Well, I managed to forget the title of the movie to go over, and googling things I remember isn't helping (and I have no idea how to spell the names that are in my head... guh, this weekend=mental death.). Well, let's look at Explorations assignment that I have to do by Noon, shall we? For reference, not all assignments are quite like this one... Who do you need? (list at least three people). Why do you need them? List the role of each person (classmate, parent, Etc). What would happen if you didn't have said persons in your life? Is there anyone that could replace them? Ok, so I'm paraphrasing and doing a bad job with pronouns, but I think that's the jist of it. I'm kinda surprised at how difficult it is to focus on this question. Though in reality, I probably spent the bulk of the past four days answering it without thinking about it directly. o_o So, ( let's breeze through this as painlessly as possible... ) Ah, why am I posting that? Oh well, I guess I'll put it in a cut now that I know how to use them... and... yeah, my assignment will probably be directly from this post. ... but just so that no one's left deceived... something is still bothering me... :'( Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 31st, 2007
11:45 am	Meh? I'm a bit pressed for time, but... thinking about potentilly important things, that probably require I ( Test something ). Hmm, it's annoyin how I can come up with lots of possibly interesting stuff to include in an essay, and yet... don't write it during the alotted time. Le sigh. I think this teacher though may be interested enough to take it late (Just for reading, I'd imagine; I certainly don't expect a grade on it. ^^). And... I rad a discussion somewhere about Zero-tolerance policies in the U.S. Public School system. A lot of the stories I read there are... well... motivating in the "Holy freaking crap, this has to be stopped..." way. Then again, it was a super conspiracy theory site... though it's got a fair mix of wackos and not-wackos. Huge variety of posters, really... XD. So, Podcast episode 5 is up. And... fun. ^_^. As for the Jeqomart store... I'm a bit "eep!" on how I'm going to pull that off... but I've got an hour and a half left, dangit! And if all else fails, I have plenty of Planet Seva bookmarks. XD. I still need the japanese word for a store that would sell bookmarks, though... -.-. Though if I add anything else, it won't be an officey store anymore... but egh, it's a department store overll; who's to say I can't have something else? (Hmm, that'd be the instructor if he so chooses... but I don't think he will. Which reminds me... I should do homework for that class. XD). Je vais â ma classe de Français maintenant... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 30th, 2007
7:45 am	Weeee? *Burn_destroys red kryptonite* ^_^ Actually that took a lot of energy that I need for posting. Umm... Podcast episode 5 is going to be ... interesting to edit, but it's also going to be rather to the point... and full of ... umm... special effects to make up for the lack of content. :D. If it isn't up tomorrow, I lose. Speaking of tomorrow... we're going to play department store in Japanese. :D I thinks this is the time for me to create Jeqo stuff from paper. Oh, wait... I have no idea what order ma markers are in. T_T *sends Draegin to Las Vegas*... *and Count Dregan*. Egh, might s well throw in Lord Zedd while we're at it. Hmm. *ponders bringing up something mildly disturbing yet important* *decides against it for the time being*. I guess I did get up rather late today, though. So I should be working on something. I should probably Email Java instructor as well to find a time to go over class structure for the ensuing LC game (which, btw, I haven't done much of any work on in the past week... :(. But I think I've got a general idea here... it won't be pretty, though. I think I'm just going to do the menu stuff the way I do for js games and have it all specify-coaded in the jframe... I don't think that'd be considered good programming, but it makes my work easier. Really... I'm a bit concerned about intro animation and such... not necessary, but I'd certainly like an animated jeqo logo (which I should make in its own file somehow, but that's just not happening... -.-) and the LC game intro from powerpoint... not too flashy, but I still don't know how to do it... it was basically just the title in convexy wordart doing the swvle animation, then having one of those glimmer things shooting across it SoR3 style. *ahem*. And I'm not sure how I'm going to pull off characters... and attacks... oh man. I think I can handle most chi-based modifiers for damage and defense either in the receite of the attack, or the character delivering it... I don't know, it will have to be outside of the attack itself. And then there are jing projections... -_- *headdesk*. But for now... I can easily make most stuff... the problem really is deciding how to organize the characters and then actually making them... because I can see there being two groups: the player characters and enemies that use their structure (Chi skills, items, all that fun stuff. Like combos.), and then generic enemies that have no need for that stuff and would probably explode if they had half of it and really just need attaacks and other stuff. I'm not sure how I'm going to do some of them though... I've got two bosses in particular in mind, but I don't think I'll mention them yet... But I don't know if I'll have that much done by December anyway, so I guess I should focus on the less confusing baddies... which would probably fall into the monster category even though they're mostly human... Egh... anyone who can find the original version online (which is incomplete...), umm, and isn't Wolfstar... umm... gets... some... kinda prize. (Psst! Wolfstar can't tell you where it is!).) Well, I guess this did accomplish something--it got me to focus on LC for a little while. Yay! The same thing happened week before last with Explorations--couldn't figure out how to deal with it... then wound up finding an answer while writing an Email. The problem isn't really these awesome sollutions that don't fit into the standard templatist system... its' more the timing. Explorations due Thursday... Podcast due tomorrow (and it's important especially for this episode to have it on time... it's been far too long since my last Halloween audio production...! And by too long, I mean on the order of 9 years or so.)... and I've got a test to do probably today... And those Jeqostuffs... I bet if I have those partly done before the test, I might be able to find someone that would be willing to help organize ma arts supplies... (Ok, maybe that should be artz with a z. Happy now? Well I'm not! *Growbomb* Now grow and conquer!). Umm, yeah. Yesterday was one of those days that makes me wonder if I'm not Dr. Jeckle... Maybe I can blame eating a whole package of Golden Oreos in five hours. -_- That's the equivalent of some kinda drugs, right there. And the results of the claritin I took for that crazy cynus death last weekend were impressive. I'm scaring myself. :O Umm... J'ai plus choses que je dois au-jour-d'hui... Ja, itte ikimasu... Umm.... Borito Frijoles con queso por favor... Wo jintien hung mang. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 20th, 2007
5:12 pm	o.o ... Why do I suddenly sound like Criss Sabbat? When twelve hours ago I ... urm... didn't? *kicks cynus and upper throat diseases* Well, umm, nothing interesting happens today. Or this week. Yeah. I'm just bored. ^_^. So, Friday before Last (Two weeks before yesterday...) I managed to go swordfighting after ... not for almost a year (scheduling conflicts and all that). And the only time I actually managed to defeat anyone was against a visually impaired student... and it was a double kill... clearly out of shape was I. So, then fall break happens, and at some point we're out back swordfighting... and well, my Dad is... good, to say the least. Though I guess that turned out better. And then yesterday, since Japanese class is at a different school and they're on fall break, I was able to attend from the beginning... Egh, still could have turned out better, but was leagues above the two weeks before that... though there were less people. So either one day of training is worth a lot, or I just decided not to blow all of my energy on a desperation attack halfway through (But... he was a duel-wielding badass that was able to fight off all of us easily before..). (I tend to ramble a lot, in case anyone didn't notice. ^___^ ) Lezee. Well, I started out today working on things related to a combo Jeqo game / prgramming assignment... and though I guess I wound up gettng the models stuff sorta setup, that's... about it. Daunting? Hopefully that's it... :O . And Podcast for this coming Wednesday isn't recorded... hopefully it'll turn out well, though... somehow I get the feeling we should shoot for as short as possible without sacrificing useful information; I mean, we don't have an audience, so anyone that stumbles upon an episode and sees the length is likely to go "... Thirty minutes? Is listening to two random n00bs really worth thirty minutes of my time?". And then there's Ask A Ninja and Homestarrunner, which have rather short things and get big fanfollowings... 'course, they're more focused on entertainment than information, but... Hopefully tomorrow won't turn out to be a deadday ™ and something will get done. Well, lezee... a couple assignments and a video game to materialize... if nothing gets done, I'm clearly made of pudding. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 16th, 2007
6:54 am	Economic disease Meh. Fall break was so unbelievably uneventful that beating Streets of Rage 2 on two players using an emulator and lots of savestates is noteworthy (Someone tell me the past ten years has been a dream... -.-). Actually, there was something I wanted to do with this post, but at present I'm too irritated by other things to focus on that. -.- Ok, how about this: "Get a good job" "career" "employment opportunities" "job interview" "in the workplace" "business meeting" "stock holders" "corporate <insert anything here>" "taxes" "make a living" "earn a living" "make a living" "a living" "time is money" "create more jobs" "help the economy" "economic growth" "financial security" "lower my bills" "get out of debt" "credit card" ... *pantpant* You know, I'm starting to cringe at the udderence of the word "job". I'm going to open dictionary.com right now and look up the word "career". (For reference: in braille, Grade 2, Career is a four-character word. If I can make tables...) ** * * ** * * ** * * Check out all of these nearby words in the dictionary: = career = career coach = career counseling = career girl = Career Limiting Move = career man = career offender = career woman = careered = careering = careerism = careerist = careers = And just below that... 7 Steps to Career Change Over 40 & Need Career Advice? Join Our Free Online Community Today! www.tbd.com Sponsored Links    The Career Project Thousands of interactive job profiles from all over the USA www.TheCareerProject.org   Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source - Share This ca·reer d/speaker [kuh-reer] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun 1. an occupation or profession, esp. one requiring special training, followed as one's lifework: He sought a career as a lawyer. 2. a person's progress or general course of action through life or through a phase of life, as in some profession or undertaking: His career as a soldier ended with the armistice. 3. success in a profession, occupation, etc. 4. a course, esp. a swift one. 5. speed, esp. full speed: The horse stumbled in full career. 6. Archaic. a charge at full speed. –verb (used without object) 7. to run or move rapidly along; go at full speed. –adjective 8. having or following a career; professional: a career diplomat. [Origin: 1525–35; < MF carriere < OPr carriera lit., road < LL carraria (via) vehicular (road), equiv. to L carr(us) wagon (see car 1) + -aria, fem. of -arius -ary ] —Synonyms 2. vocation, calling, work, lifework, livelihood. Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006. So, what do we get from this? Look at those ads, first. Why do we have sponsored links about career opportunities in the USA? What is this? Well, what about those definitions? It uses words we should look up. Occupation, proffession, Vocation... what are these? List Of Careers Move your career forward with an accredited online degree! www.CourseAdvisor.com Sponsored Links    Need good advice now? Nobody you can trust? We can help. Live, personal, confidential mygoodadvice.com American Heritage Dictionary - Cite This Source - Share This ca·reer d/speaker (k?-rîr') Pronunciation Key n. List of 3 items (contains 1 nested list) 1. List of 2 items nesting level 1 A. A chosen pursuit; a profession or occupation. B. The general course or progression of one's working life or one's professional achievements: an officer with a distinguished career; a teacher in the midst of a long career. list end nesting level 1 2. A path or course, as of the sun through the heavens. 3. Speed: "My hasting days fly on with full career" (John Milton). list end adj. Doing what one does as a permanent occupation or lifework: career diplomats; a career criminal. intr.v. ca·reered, ca·reer·ing, ca·reers To move or run at full speed; rush. See Usage Note at careen. [French carrière, from Old French, racecourse, from Old Provençal carriera, street, from Medieval Latin (via) carraria, (road) for carts, feminine of carrarius, from Latin carrus, a Gallic type of wagon; see kers- in Indo-European roots.] ( Download Now or Buy the Book) The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition Copyright © 2006 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved. Career Advice Better Decisions for a Better Life. Find Out How You Can Decide Better www.decidebetter.com Sponsored Link These still use concepts that we're supposed to understand, so I'll look up occupation now. (IE7 gives me information bar alerts with every search I do...) = occupation = occupation layer = occupation level = occupation licence = occupation license = occupation tax = occupational = occupational dermati… = occupational disease = occupational group = occupational hazard = occupational medicin… = occupational neurosi… = occupational safety … = occupational safety … = Oh, snap. In trying to select the sponsored link text I pushed enter by mistake, had to refresh the page, and now it's not behaving properly. *burns flash ads* (Seriously, flash ads are probably the most annoying not-spyware ads in existance). Occupations Free Information on Degrees and Training for Hundreds of Careers www.OnlineDegrees.com Sponsored Links    High Salary Occupations Degrees for a High Paid Occupation. The facts about College Degrees. www.CareerUniversities.com   Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source - Share This oc·cu·pa·tion d/speaker [ok-yuh-pey-shuh n] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun 1. a person's usual or principal work or business, esp. as a means of earning a living; vocation: Her occupation was dentistry. 2. any activity in which a person is engaged. 3. possession, settlement, or use of land or property. 4. the act of occupying. 5. the state of being occupied. 6. the seizure and control of an area by military forces, esp. foreign territory. 7. the term of control of a territory by foreign military forces: Danish resistance during the German occupation. 8. tenure or the holding of an office or official function: during his occupation of the vice presidency. [Origin: 1250–1300; ME occupacioun < MF occupation < L occupation- (s. of occupatio), equiv. to occupat(us) (ptp. of occupare; see occupy) + -ion- -ion ] —Related forms oc·cu·pa·tion·less, adjective oc·cu·pa·tive, adjective —Synonyms 1. employment, pursuit, craft, métier. Occupation, business, profession, trade refer to the activity to which one regularly devotes oneself, esp. one's regular work, or means of getting a living. Occupation is the general word: a pleasant or congenial occupation. Business esp. suggests a commercial or mercantile occupation: the printing business. Profession implies an occupation requiring special knowledge and training in some field of science or learning: the profession of teaching. Trade suggests an occupation involving manual training and skill: one of the building trades. 3. occupancy. Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006. American Heritage Dictionary - Cite This Source - Share This oc·cu·pa·tion d/speaker (ok'y?-pa'sh?n) Pronunciation Key n. List of 3 items (contains 3 nested lists) 1. List of 6 items nesting level 1 A. An activity that serves as one's regular source of livelihood; a vocation. B. An activity engaged in especially as a means of passing time; an avocation. C. The act or process of holding or possessing a place. D. The state of being held or possessed. E. Invasion, conquest, and control of a nation or territory by foreign armed forces. F. The military government exercising control over an occupied nation or territory. list end nesting level 1 2. List of 4 items nesting level 1 A. The act or process of holding or possessing a place. B. The state of being held or possessed. C. Invasion, conquest, and control of a nation or territory by foreign armed forces. D. The military government exercising control over an occupied nation or territory. list end nesting level 1 3. List of 2 items nesting level 1 A. Invasion, conquest, and control of a nation or territory by foreign armed forces. B. The military government exercising control over an occupied nation or territory. list end nesting level 1 list end [Middle English occupacioun, from Old French occupacion, from Latin occupatio, occupation-, from occupatus, past participle of occupare, to occupy; see occupy.] ( Download Now or Buy the Book) The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition Copyright © 2006 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved. I don't think we're talking about possession of land by military force (though maybe we are). But look what phrase popped up "make a living". Make a living? Living is a verb, twits! Like when I asked babelfish about a word I was unsure of for a French line in Extreme Clashers; it first gave me a phrase that used a noun... And yes, it was talking about making... So by "a living", I think we mean "a means by which to continue living". And by "make", I think we mean "obtain"; "earn a living" is probably a better phrase. So let's rewrite this definition then: Career: see occupation Occupation: activities that serve as a means of obtaining a means by which one can remain living. Oh, so going to the bathroom is an occupation. :) After all, going there is a means of accessing a means of remaining living... So, walking out into this orchard and eating an orange is an occupation. And apparently running from the brutish security force that chases you out with guns and pitchforks is an occupation (after all, getting stabbed and shot would be adverse to living). Going to bed is an occupation! What, are my examples wrong somehow? What am I missing? Money? What's that? We haven't mentioned that! I guess I'll ask dictionary.com: = monetisation = monetise = monetization = monetize = monetize the debt = monetized = monetizes = monetizing = monetizing debt = MONEX = money = money at call = money belt = money bill = money box = money burning a hole… = money bush = money center bank = money changer = money changing = money clip = Wow, that's a lot of money related words and phrases! This must be a really important substance! Earn 9.40%-13.23% Returns Why earn 5% in a CD? As seen on Good Morning America. Join today. www.prosper.com Sponsored Links    Fast Cash Advance Fast Online Loan Approvals. Bad Credit, No Credit, Bankruptcy. fastcashadvance.com (What the flying pfargtl is that?) Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source - Share This mon·ey d/speaker [muhn-ee] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, plural mon·eys, mon·ies, adjective –noun 1. any circulating medium of exchange, including coins, paper money, and demand deposits. 2. paper money. 3. gold, silver, or other metal in pieces of convenient form stamped by public authority and issued as a medium of exchange and measure of value. 4. any article or substance used as a medium of exchange, measure of wealth, or means of payment, as checks on demand deposit or cowrie. 5. a particular form or denomination of currency. 6. money of account. 7. capital to be borrowed, loaned, or invested: mortgage money. 8. an amount or sum of money: Did you bring some money? 9. wealth considered in terms of money: She was brought up with money. 10. moneys or monies, Chiefly Law. pecuniary sums. 11. property considered with reference to its pecuniary value. 12. pecuniary profit: not for love or money. –adjective 13. of or pertaining to money. 14. used for carrying, keeping, or handling money: Have you seen my little money purse? 15. of or pertaining to capital or finance: the money business. —Idioms 16. for one's money, Informal. with respect to one's opinion, choice, or wish: For my money, there's nothing to be gained by waiting. 17. in the money, Informal. a. having a great deal of money; affluent: You can see he's in the money by all those clothes he buys. b. first, second, or third place in a contest, esp. a horse or dog race. 18. make money, to make a profit or become rich: You'll never make money as a poet. 19. on the money, Informal. a. at just the exact spot or time; on target: The space shuttle landed on the money at 9:55 a.m. b. exhibiting or done with great accuracy or expertise: His weather forecasts are always on the money. Also, right on the money. 20. put one's money where one's mouth is, Informal. to prove the truth of one's words by actions or other evidence; demonstrate one's sincerity or integrity: Instead of bragging about your beautiful house, put your money where your mouth is and invite us over to see it. [Origin: 1250–1300; ME moneie < MF < L monéta mint 2, money ] —Related forms mon·ey·less, adjective —Synonyms 3. coin, cash, currency, specie, change. 11. funds, capital, assets, wealth, riches. Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006. 20 definitions! Wow! AND ONLY ONE OF THEM ACTUALLY GETS THE POINT ACROSS WITHOUT REQUIRING THAT YOU KNOW THE CONCEPT BEFORE HAND! Minority Grants Government Grants. 100s Listed. Apply Online. Business or Personal. minoritygrants.com Sponsored Links    $200 - $1,000 Cash/Day Executive Income Now. Start Today. Direct Deposit To Your Bank Account www.dailynetmoney.com   Bank account? Bah! So, money is something that only has value as a means of exchange. Umm... so what do we exchange it for? Goods? Services? Food? Houses? Resources? Hmm. That's interesting! So, when you say "earn a living", you mean "earn money to exchange for the things that one needs to continue living". Oh. So we have to pay for oxygen? Oh crap! I'm breathing and I don't think anyone's getting paid for it! So we have to pay to take a crap? Hate to break it to you, but money or no, that stuff's coming out. So we have to pay to sleep? Hate to break it to you, but sometimes you can't control how awake you are. Oh, wait... we have to pay for a place to sleep? But you can't move places! Places are locations! Oh, you're paying for the right to exist in that location? Well that's strange! Ok, so I'll go somewhere else, I guess. Surely there's somewhere you can exist without paying someone for it. Wow, there are miles and miles of places that you have to pay to exist on; I guess I'll just make my way out of them until I can find someplace that isn't owned, never mind the fact that the very concept of owning locations is illogical... But I can't make this journey without sleeping. I guess I'll just sleep on the side of the path... Wait, what? That's forbidden, too? And food would be nice! Hey, look, an apple tree! Wait... someone owns the apple tree, and you have to exchange something to take an apple from it? Ok, well, I guess there's grass. Wait, someone owns that, too! Well, no one owns this earthworm! And this earthworm travels from place to place without being charged rent! Wow, that Earthworm has it pretty good... it'd be kind of cruel to eat it. And I can't fit in its tunnels. Well, now what? Oh, wait... what's stopping me from eating the fruit and sleeping where I want? These things are necessary for survival, so what these people say is hardly im--wait, you're willing to shoot me over that? Hmm, that's not good; that's a ranged weapon, deadly force and accuracy... if I'm lucky I have a rock and this Earthworm... do I keep going, or do I try to disarm the guy who's willing to kill so I don't eat one of his apples (considering that he has hundreds, if not thousands)? Well, eventually I'll have to stop and eat and sleep to live, but it might be hard to get past this guy without causing him harm or getting harmed myself... do I keep going and hope there's something better? Do I try to fight the odds? No, of course! You get a job, of course! Then you can buy these things! A job? What's that! That's where you do something and get money for it! Oh, ok, if I must... how's it work? Find someone who needs someone to work for them and see if they'll hire you! Wait, this is getting really complicated! Just finding the orchard and getting over that electric barbed wire fence was work enough! And he's got plenty of apples! You're telling me I've got to go wandering the countryside looking for someone who will give me enough money to pay for this every day? Well, doesn't sound too bad; what do I have to do? Wait, what? For at least eight hours a day, and that's all I get? Well, if you work hard enough you might get promoted! But I don't care about promotions; I just want to not die! Then keep working! But... I want to do other stuff too... I mean, I've got this neat little human mind; I'd sure like to put it to use... Well, do that after work! But after work I'm tired and need to recover! Well, before work! There's no time, because I need to sleep! Hey, you still have eight hours! (Incidentally, we might need you to do overtime this week...) What! *headdesk* Look at this--miles and miles of fruit! Enough to feed a city, and they regenerate every year! And tehre's plenty of space around here, and if we control our population growth and watch where we put our waste, we could live just fine until some catachlism screws up the ecosystem! But no, no, no! I mean, sure, we could watchover the place to make sure nothing goes wrong--a mind's useful for that. Sure, we could watch out for ourselves, spread knowledge, do all sorts of creative things... but no, because that's not how it works... you have to do something else entirely! You might even get payed for picking the apples... but you can't eat them! (Bah, only when you're looking overseer!), but it isn't enough to buy the apples to eat them! Nothing here makes sense! Oh, but it's not over, yet! Screw this crap! *Wacks the gunman over the head with a club and takes his weapon*. Now all we have to do is make sure the apples keep growing! Wait... more gunmen? We can't fight all of them! Wait, why are they fighting in the first place? Just take some apples if you're hungry! Neither of us needs all of them, after all! But, no, it has nothing to do with that! We're not paying for the apples! That's theft? How is that theft! They grow on trees! How can you steal something that grows on trees? But you're not stealing from the gunmen, or from the trees--you're stealing from the company. What the bloody pfargtl is a company? And, you're forcing the wages of the workers to go down! Well, great! Why don't they just eat the apples? Because they can't pay for them! *headspin* If you'd just share the apples, we wouldn't have this problem! Well, then the company wouldn't make money! But if we just eat stuff for free, why does the company need money? ... Oh, wait. I don't have an answer to that! Well, they need jets and cars and suits and prestige! "need"? Are you sure it's not "want"? If I haven't made it clear, the necessities of life should not be bound by money. You know what the majority of the spam emails I get at planetseva.com are? medications! You know what the non-medication ones are? Sexual enhancers! (All for men, fancy that!) Medication is supposed to treat disease--to cure disease! Ok, get the word out--that's great! Now people know what to do for certain problems! Unless, you know, people would do the logical thing and actually seek treatment when they know something's wrong! Then instead of having to figure out which of these advertised products (Yes, they compete!!!!! D-R-U-G-S C-O-M-P-E-T-E!) and get confused and... AH!!! Now, what about land? Ok, people need a certain degree of privacy and personal space--I know that very well. So, find yourself an area and keep people out of it... except for one little thing: you can't privatize food, water, Etc... these are things that everyone can use, and there are only issues with supply when people overuse or the ecosystem breaks down (which is a cue to either fix it, or stop increasing the population). And I guess you could ration supplies into your personal space, but only what you need--anything else would just waste space, after all, and even then... only if you know you absolutely can't retrieve resources later. I.E, storing stuff for the winter. But seriously, now we destroy resources to enhance the flow of money that was invented to control the resources in the first place? Sure, there are some things that shouldn't be public like that, but these aren't things that are necessary for survival--things that may significantly improve your quality of life, but can you live without them? Sure. Grudgingly, maybe, but you can live. But food, water, personal space... you shouldn't have to buy these things! Money serves a purpose--it protects what is yours, and gives you access to things. But why charge for what people need? Of course, so you can get what you want--after all, if you have what people need and are charging them for it, you sure don't need the money to get it yourself (unless you're in a corporation... which of course makes absolutely 0 sense). So essentially, the privatization of necessities comes back to one thing, and one thing alone: greed. If you have food to sell, you don't need to buy food. If you have land to sell, you don't need to buy land. If you have air to sell, you should kick the collective rear ends of those making the rest of the air unusable. And if you have enough of these resources to make a decent profit from it, you could clearly share these things just fine. But then you couldn't afford other things, could you? Like what? What else do you need? You can't exchange food for a better car. You can't exchange life for pleasure. Money puts these things on an equal playing field--suddenly apples and oranges are comparable by their monitary value. But you know what? They're still apples and oranges! Since when do apples equal a fraction of a car? You can't build a car out of apples! (Well, ok, I'd like to see that attempted... XD). You can't eat a car! (Ok, that'd be amusing if attempted... XD). You can't compare apples and cars--they're completely different objects! They do completely different things! But suddenly they're equal now that we've given them numerical values? You need food to live! You need cars to travel great distances in a short amount of time. Not anywhere near related! How can you trade sustinence for convenience? And, then we have this: now that money is used for everything, we can ask for money--after all, it's necessary to live--and use it on something we don't actually need! "Can you give us money to buy food?" "No, but I can give you some food." "*dialtone*". "Can you donate money to buy school supplies for needy children?" "Well, can you tell me where these supplies will be distributed?" "Ask this department." "Wait, no, ask this department." "You know, I'm just going to go distribute products instead of putting money in an anonymous pot..." You should have to pay for a computer and an internet connection. You should not have to pay for food, air, or a place to live. On the one hand, we say we need to earn the right to live. On the other, throw a man in the forest where there is no economy, and he'll earn his right to live in a better way, thank you very much. And, what about families? Oh, now we have problems! Who works? How do we determine who has to earn what? How do we determine how much each employee gets paid? And what about these freaking businesses where we have people coming in and typing away at computers in cubicals all day... spreadsheets, earnings reports, stockholders and meetings... Wait, what does this company even do? *rips up paper and recycles the shreds* Well, that took way too long. I have homework to do so I can get good grades on my college transcript so I can apply for a job and make money to pay for things that are necessary to live. Although I have no intention of participating in any of that bullcrap. Lazy? No, I am not lazy. I'm just not stupid. And if all the billions of working people in the world took offense to that: oh well. Maybe you're just smart and not assertive. Heck if I know. Go ahead and complain day in and day out about your job but never doing anything about it for fear of losing it, because it's necessary for survival. Go ahead and take abuse from the greedy because they hold the keys to your life and dangle them just out of your grasp. Go ahead and be money's bitch! Unless you're a master of money. Then, go ahead and continue to dangle the keys in front of the people that are suffering because of your selfishness. And if you're one of the people trying to do something about it: well, good for you! Now figure out a way to make a bigger impact. Go ahead and say the same to me, because I haven't figured it out either! ... no, I'm not a communist. And I don't think humanity as it stands today could survive anarchy. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 8th, 2007
1:34 pm	Milk. Hmm, second page... pseudo-woot. Well, that class of death got an assignment in today, so I've avoided failure for another week. Though I should probably start on this week's stuff like... half an hour ago so as not to lose that... living on edge witha class like this is hardly safe (You want I should describe it? Pfft... later, perhaps.). So, my weekend was wasted, pretty much. The best that happened really was my research into traditional chinese medicine and stuff. Actually, the Zang-fu organ system is reasonably interesting... and knowing a little more about it strikes me as useful for reasons I would feel like an anti-realist for explaining (Believe me, I think my ideas of realism are viable... it's just working out how that's the hard part. ^^. Of course, that's what Planet Seva is for.). Did some minor updating to PlanetSeva.com; apparently the book is... out of print. *snickers*... on demand... Hehehehe... Full story. Though... I guess I wrote that. . The moisture in this room is well nigh unacceptable. Hmm. Last night/this morning's dreams (I did in fact observe a distinction between the two since I woke up around midnight and went back to sleep) were... intense. Though I'm hesitant to discuss them in a public place... the first was about as personal as it could get, really (And let's just say it was full of resurrections... :O . And our friend Jesus of Nazareth made a guest appearance that strikes me as symbolic.). The second was kinda strange and... I don't kow, my entire concept of time was completely shattered, really; the past year has been pretty brutal about acting strange in terms of perceived time, and my concerns of that and my confused state after the first round, coupled with physicl stuff and things that were on my mind led to something that was mildly confusing until I woke up... involving Japaese class in an area that looks very familiar, but is kinda tough to place (I can't decide which it was supposed to be, but it strongly resembled either one of the gymnasiums from public school or one of the cafeterias at UHE or NIC... but I'm not sure it was either... ).. and ... umm... Power rangers and crossovers and missing Japanese class to do power rangers stuff... all inside this building, mind you, and ... something about falling asleep in that general area and totally confusing with time and... geeral insanity of the g-rated variety. (Well, I don't remember if there was any bad language or not. hough in the first one there was one reference to a certain m-f-bomb in lyrical form...). o.o. Well, I'm... still awaiting a test I need to finish quickly; I need to deal with things for that class and probably some French and edit this week's podcast and ... is that it? And update the site with the podcast and such. I think that's all I need to do this week... but then there's home stuff. I never got an answer concerning things at NHS... but that's no big deal, I s'ppose. ^^. I had better have the Taoe game done this weekend... and I've got another project I want to start on, though I seem to be holding back for just the right moment... we'll see how that turns out. But if it does work, I'll say it's been long in the making... longer perhaps than any Jeqo project so far... And... yeah. I guess I'm in wasting-time mode. I have an omenous feeling that this afternoon is going to be a little painful on the completing things side, and tomorrow will be a little crammed, but doable. Actually... I should look for my French book, sinceI couldn't find it for class today and there's something in there I should do for tomorrow... and I want to devote tomorrow morning to the podcast, so I should take care of that quickly. And... umm... go vote on this thing, because I can't make up my mind... Ooh, I wonder if there's something new from homestarrunner today... If I'm lucky, I'll go swordfighting tonight... but 7:30 pm is not a good time for me and awakeness... we'll see how things play out. Let's see, what classes do I want to take next semester. I think my schedule currently (note I haven't looked at it since last semester) is like... French, Shortfiction, music? There may be a history in there. Or Chinese or something, I don't know. History as a subject is quite interesting... history as a class I have reservations about. Though I managed to pull through American Studies t ASMSA without ... well... doing much homework at all (I did read some things... just... not much... ^^; discussion is so much more fun.). World history before that... that worked, though I like how that history book was layed out (and I had it on CD, so listening to it was actually somewhat fun. ^^.). I should take a math class... just so my skills don't die. Shortfiction is probably being retaken... though I can't say I want to (nothing agains it, though--it was an awesome class... just... actually doing the work is adverse to me. T.T). Chinese looks interesting. Will I take it? I don't know. I want to take a drawing class. Seriously... I'm at a point where I need to design a lot of graphical stuff using vector graphics and a lot of tedious multi-frame animation and stuff... I think a freehand drawing class would be very helpful. That, and it just looks fun (I don't think it's a coincidence I haven't taken an art class since 7th grade. >.>. Not by my design, I assure you.) Wow, it's been like 25 minutes. I guess I should post this thing. I'm bored now. I ... need... find... livre de fran-- Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007
5:12 pm	week>=50%awesome Hmm, eventful and successful. Sounds edible! Odd that I'd come here to talk about stuff since I don't feel much like talking about all the stuff from the past week (though I did hear an interesting conversation in the cafeteria involving someone from this sate hating America and a foreign exchange student saying there'snothing wrong with the USA...)... though yeah, that video on traditional Chinese medical practices was interesting ... and I think my dad might be interested in it... It's annoying sometimes when I go to sleep rather early, and yet, the next time I check the time after waking, it's twelve hours after the last time I checked the time... :(. Despite this, though, a lot got done this morning! Though I'd better make tis quit so it doesn't end there (thursday is a horrible day for getting work done, and there's a good deal of homework that wants my attention). So, planetseva.com has an update for the first time in like... 10 months and 20 days. Including... Podcast relaunch! And I think the feed is working... I ... don't really know since I don't plan on using it myself (Why would I suscribe to something that I upload?). This turned out pretty well, though, and hopefully we can get a weekly series going... meaning we should record tomorrow, or Friday at the latest... but yeah... I think tomorrow is best, but ... *kicks homework* some other things are to happen. So, in my Japanese teacher's class on Kafk he took back when he was a student, the grade was determined by a roll of the die... XD How ... appropriate. :D And now... my computer is showing me that the windows 98 with ie4 on dialup is still very useful bbavingfar less efficiently..Y know, I't even fig becus it eemplifies tproble. ... *sigh*. No, that wasn't my bad typing. That was the computer passing a kidney stone. I felt like I would fall asleep waiting for it to start working properly. ... As I was saying... windows 98 doesn't do that. :P. And dialup+ie4 desn't eat my sentences for no reason other than being memory inefficient. So, umm, yeah, a lot of a lot of stuff at planetseva.com was updated... go listen to the podcast and tell us what we should do better... and... umm... wating on the computer to stop being stupid drained my mental power, so I'm going to try to find assignments that need doing. Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2007
6:33 pm	lotsa rants today (Umm, yeah, uh, slightly intense language for me... :O ) (ah, and I thought I'd stick this in at the last minute... " I don't really see how people here can trash Sabat as Piccolo and Vegeta. Yet at the same time say they love Drummond and McNeil. Well, if we could understand everything from all viewpoints, arguments wouldn't exist. And that would just be boring."). So, yeah, eventually I got worked up enough to actually compile this into something. Mostly from a thread at Daizenshuu EX that was starteed because someone's Jr High peers can be douchebags about what other people are into. Eventually of course we have people talking about various types of situations involving them, various relations and Dragonball, which results in a subject that gets me far too ranting and raving to justify posting on the thread in question. But since I managed to cus out the air in response, I decided an LJ post would do the world justice... So you're alright. The people who bother you are just ignorant and don't do any research so they're obviously wrong if they base their entire opinion of a show that they saw less than half an episode of and then dismissed it as kids stuff. And what, prétell, is wrong with "kids' stuff"? Ah, yes. I remember those years well. I would always wait for all the browsers in the toy aisle of my local department store to naturally move on before I looked for Dragon Ball figures, or searched for Dragon Ball DVDs, because I was so self-conscious that I thought my 15-year old peers would think less of me. The funny thing was, 90% of my classmates were cool with it or just didn't care one way or the other. Most of it was in my head. I like this guy. :D . Well, in his present incarnation. Though I understand self-conscious as well. And it's all right to be into shounen, whether you're in middle school, nineteen (like me), or whatever. But just like every other interest which isn't considered "normal" (including, but not limited to, MTV, binge drinking, and modding your crappy civic) there are going to be some narrow-minded douchebags out there who'll target it for an easy laugh. Be prepared to accept that. Also be prepared to shrug it off, because it ultimately doesn't matter. Well, that part is out of the way. But that's not the part that bugs me (said douchebags often wind up in situations where kicking the crap out of them is legal... o.o). But... let's add some more words of wisdom from this guy before moving on to the stuff that gets me irate. One big lesson I learned is that everyone in the world does not have to think highly of you. In fact, it's almost better when they don't. Hmm, I don't think I'll go into an analytical explosion on this one today. :D. But that's an essay-worthy quote. (And for some reason I find the '.' key isn't hit half the time anymore... Wah?) I had similar experience of being called a child who never grows up as the others ;] At the beggining of my adventure with DB everyone, especially parents, thought I must be insane to watch another "cartoon" at that age and they haven't even bothered to recognize difference between cartoon and anime/manga. I've even tried to convince them that a very popular bedtime cartoon Mitsubachi Maya no boken - "Pszczólka Maja" in Poland - is in fact anime but they've only looked at me with pitiful expression on their faces and have told me to get some sleep ;] At point of the time they've started to believe that I simply like opening song fot DB (in Poland it was a pitiful French version) which I'll leave without comments ;] Ok, so, umm, sounds like a different culture, but... What the f**king hell is wrong with watching a cartoon at "that age"? I mean, WHAT! Why is it some kind of F**king mortal sin to watch cartoons or play with action figures at age 20 when it'd be scary if you didn't at age 5? What the F**king hell is WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!! So what, at age 50 are you going to say "What are you still doing eating and sleeping? You should be preparing for your funeral because it's socially unacceptable to be living at this age"? Ok, how about... what the F**King hell do you want people to do when they're "too old" to do things that are actually fun? What? WHAT!!!!!! "You're too old to watch cartoons". "So what do I do instead?" "Go get married, get a 9-5 job, and find yourself a nice sitcom or sports team to follow." "But none of those sound remotely interesting!" ... -.-. Don't tell me to "grow up" when you people are too stuck in your foundless social constructs about what should define people! You don't have to suddenly change into a porn-loving inferior-bashing douchebag just because you're in Junior High. You don't have to remodel who you are because you've learned more... expand? Sure! Improve? Sure! "Grow up"? What the bloody freaking heck does that mean? And how about someone who actually agrees with the viewpoint that I'm bashing tell me, because anyone who sees any logic in what I'm saying will give a more palletable answer. "Well, I assume you want to be grown up"... If by "grown up", you mean capable of accepting responsibility for my actions, capable of surviving independently if need be, and capable of adapting to new situations without someone holding my hand and talking in a sing-song voice (which, by the way, I don't like to hear used on younger people... bleh to psych 101...)... well, ok, I can't see anything wrong with that. But when I hear "Grown up", I don't hear "wise enough to take responsibility for your life", I hear "shed the identity that you've held for over a decade and customize this nice adult identity template; but don't worry, there are plenty of variables, so you're still you"... ... ... ... BULLSHIT!!! You know, all of this crap has led me to loathe discussions about "career", "getting a job", Etc... like... with each passing day, I despise the concept of a "job" even more... and that just sounds lazy and apathetic and idealistic and like someone who wants everything handed to him... and I know very well that's no way to live. *pantpant*. Well, Ok, just to assure you that I'm not flying off the handle because of one post... Bomber Greek wrote: They all think of it as a cartoon. Because it is. It's nothing to be ashamed of, but you like a child's program. Quoted for wisdom. It was like that to a lesser degree for me in middle school. I'm 21 now, and look back on the whole thing as rather funny, and the people who gave me a hard time about liking DBZ (because I'm a GIRL! SHOCK! GASP! Girls can't watch DBZ!!! You go watch Sailor Moon, you female!) really didn't affect my fandom or the friends I made through that fandom. I'm far more pissed off over "social age", but this is in the same category of society deaming it inappropriate to construct a truly personal identity because of the expected social identity range. Of course, the problem with this line of thought is that it could be twisted to support downright criminal behavior. Let me just say that there's a big difference between harming people and watching cartoons when you're out of highschool. Just take everything in stride. Believe it or not, the world doesn't end after high school. Before, actually. I've always got to think the same thing to myself whenever I go out to buy anime or check the Kids' Section of the DVD rack to see if yet another show from my growing up has been released in a season set. I'm getting there, though Until this moment, I didn't understand the concept of pride. But now I think I will illustrate it: The first two seasons of Power Rangers kick so much ass, the pile of kicked asses is visible from space. And Rugrats=awesome. And it is indeed possible to learn useful information from Barney the Dinosaur (Or at least it was...). And... I'll quote myself: I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate with the passion of Rocketman's Chichi obsession ×mc² when people consider interests, hobbies, outlooks, atitudes, Etc, Etc, Etc, out of place due to social categories like age, gender, Etc. There's a difference between learning enough to not do stupid things and doing "kiddy" things because regardless of age, they're still awesome. Dragonball kicks ass. It's not YuGiO, it's not Pokemon, and you still don't have to like it. I do. And Power Rangers are awesome, I asked Santa Clause for an episode of the XMen series from the early 90s on DVD a couple years ago, and a Gohan figure before that... and you know what? Playgrounds=win. Make one my size so the physics aren't overly apparent. </rant> ^ agrees with everyone else. And more from the guy of wisdom who I have yet to name in this post... I think part of what I realized -- and probably what a lot of us realized -- is that it's simply no way to live. I can play the game. I can say all the right things to all the right people; fitting in has never been a problem for me. I can be well-liked and stay in-character for weeks. I hi-jacked many relationships this way for years. If you've read 1984, you know George Orwell called this ability "doublethink". And it does have its benefits. But it just limits your whole worldview so considerably. I shouldn't be waiting for an empty space, like some closet pervert, just to look at Dragon Ball merchandise. It's ridiculous. To think of all the time I could have saved if I only focused on accepting my unpopular fandom, instead of focusing on ways to "explain it" to people... In time, it became something much larger than Dragon Ball. It became who I am and who I planned to be. Was I really going to let other people call the shots my whole life? Was I really going to be That Guy? The guy everyone else in the office shoves all the heavy work on just because they know he'll take it? Hell no. I needed to change this collective social relationship to something that put me in the driver's seat, and not just "along for the ride". Screw it. Screw them. Screw every alienating thought. I'm going to look for DVD Boxsets, read the manga in the used book store, and yes... I WILL LOOK FOR DRAGON BALL ACTION FIGURES. Bomber Greek, you seem to be coming from the standpoint of "I'd rather show 'em what-for", and that's surely gratifying, when you can do it. What this type of thinking fails to account for, however, is that there will always be one more guy. It's better to just deal with the issue forever in your mind and be done with it. What you've got to realize is, people make unfair judgements on other people every day. They size you up, walking down the street, and decide in their heads "This guy thinks he's better than me" or "This guy really has his shit together!" or "This guy is probably high-maintenance". We all do it. Tell me you haven't spotted some stranger with an unconventional fashion sense and labeled him as a dork, or worse yet, a scenester. So who cares if-- worst case scenario -- everyone in the world thinks Dragon Ball is lame? You probably think all of them are lame, too. Doesn't seem to bother them much, does it? Yay collective wisdom: I feel like anyone who tries to show their friends a violent scene from the show or something to prove that it's not for kids is being disingenuous. It is for kids. Dragon Ball is very much a children's show. But...so what? There's no law against older people enjoying things that are meant for children. Hell, Toy Story is on the AFI Top 100; the American Film Institute, after careful thought and consideration, decided that this computer-animated children's movie is one of the one hundred best movies in the entire history of American cinema, running all the way back to the late 19th century. If a kid's movie is good enough for the hundreds of critics, filmmakers, historians, etc who participated in the AFI poll, it's good enough for you and, more importantly, your punk ass classmates. A misconception that many people have is that "adult" themes are somehow inherently better than what you'd find in standard children's programming. I feel that this misconception is especially prevalent among kids in junior high and high school, where everyone is suddenly in a hurry to grow up. But it is just a misconception. Whether your target audience is children, adults, Canadians, whatever, the same elements of storytelling remain important and will make or break your work: characterization, plot, etc. This is why children's movies are routinely critically acclaimed (for a recent example, just look at Ratatouille) and, just as importantly, why explosive special effects extravaganzas with little redeeming artistic quality lurking beneath the veneer of sex and violence are universally panned. There's nothing wrong with Dragon Ball, and there's nothing wrong with you for liking Dragon Ball. The only problem here is when you take what other people say about you to heart. I've got a friend, 25 years old, shows up at Walmart at midnight to pick up the newest Yu-Gi-Oh DVDs. And yeah, we all give him a hard time over it. But it's all in good fun and he deals it all back to us. That he watches Yu-Gi-Oh certainly hasn't shaped how I or anyone else feels about him, because there's more to people than just one hobby. Friends mess around with each other, but if they're really your friends, they don't really care what you like to watch. You'll have your common interests that you can talk about together and you'll have your individual interests that you don't bother each other with. I think it's raining inside my room again. ... Wow, as soon as I typed that, someone knocketh on the door to get a look at that very feature to know how to describe it to maintenance... And if I haven't mentioned it here... water from some source seems to be collecting on the wall and ceiling above the ground-based climate control unit and then ... raining... so we have a domesticated water cycle going on. Not as bad as it was a few weeks ago, though. "Critics who treat adult as a term of approval, instead of as a merely descriptive term, cannot be adult themselves." ~C.S. Lewis --On Three Ways of Writing for Children Just quote that to that guy next time BomberGeek and walk off as he tries to process it. C.S. Lewis is clearly someone whose writings I should read. I mean... seriously... have I gone this long without reading anything of his? I remember being in middle school (I'm a college student now) and being proud to show my interest in "more mature" content. Nothing like showing someone an episode of HBO's Spawn animated series to establish that. Looking back, it's a flawed mentality, and others in this thread have already done a great job discussing it. I wanted to add that, whether it's my particular age group or just this point in time, there's a resurgence of nostalgia and a proud-to-be-a-geek mentality. A decade ago, we'd try to show how "mature" we were through our interests. Now, I know people that get together and watch classic Disney movies. It's suddenly cool to know a lot of Transformers trivia. Nobody cared when the new Mortal Kombat game was released, but everybody wanted a piece of the cutesy Wii Sports. The whole thing's been flipped on its head. Just some interesting insight. Since I can't add to most he said... Mortal Kombat: Armageddon was nothing more than a lame attempt to capitalize on flare (MK:ShaolenMonks adventure engine), over-the-top gore (Create a Fatality), the RPG "Genre" (the entire freaking story, which doesn't fit into the series continuity at all), and fanservice (Throwing in lots and lots of characters for no reason). The Mortal Kombat Plot guide by Gavoc (SP?) hasn't even been updated, when it was updated within weeks for Deceptions. (The plot of MK: Deceptions was... well... amazed me. It had some really crappy elements, but there were plot twists that excited me enough to call home (I was at ASMSA at the time). And Shaolin Monks (Yeah, I've spelled that two ways now...) totally shat on that. Kickass gameplay and epic-ness? Maybe... but as a part of the franchise... To quote Shao Khan, "Don't make me laugh! You suck!".). ' m a closet DBZ fan, I'll put my manga away when someone comes over. It's difficult to be a girl fan of Dragonball, other girls don't get it and boys assume your not really into it or don't take you as seriously as others. Not everyone is like this, but there are definitely are some. I'm very feminine, and a pacifist. For someone outside, juxtapositioning me and Dragonball makes no sense. But to me, it does. It's all symbolism for me, fantasy symbolism. But it's difficult to explain that to another, "No, I don't like watching people get beat up, it's just that that isn't what it is to me..." I'm not doing a good job of explaining what I mean here, but generally I just don't try to explain why I like it so much, there's nothing wrong with liking it, it's easier for me to just not mention it. I think it would be fun to know some people who liked the same things I do that I could geek out with, though. As for whether it's a kids program or a show for adults... well, I always thought that it is a show for anyone who wants to watch it. It has puns and little jokes that appeal to kids, older kids will like the fighting and adults will like all that plus some of the surprisingly complex interactions between characters. Yeah... umm... fart jokes got old around those bloopers at the end of ... A Bug's Life? Maybe it was ToyStory II... but I think it was the former... (Oy, temptation to branch off on tangent that would be unnecessarily critical of others rising...). And... well... check this out for amusement: The greatest thing I have ever heard: "Which is better, eternal happiness or a ham sandwich? A ham sandwich, of course. After all, nothing is better than eternal happiness, and a ham sandwich is certainly better than nothing. Therefore a ham sandwich is better than eternal happiness." Hell, I'm a Senior in High School and I love Dragonball! Very Happy I generally don't give a shit about what people say about the show. They can hate it, and I won't give a damn. They could make jokes about it, calling it a "kid's show", but I wouldn't really care. I don't even know if anybody in my school, (Which has 1,500 students) even knows what Dragonball is. Hell, they don't even ask me, or even have a clue that I like it. As much crap people will throw at it, the games, the show, all of it, I will still like it. I never got crap for liking it in school, but then only a few knew I liked it and they were fans themselves. My parents though always bitch when I 'waste' my money on it. They think I'm too old to be watching a cartoon, but eh... what do they know. What do they know? Absolutely nothing. Assholes. Actually... that's the post that got me 'riled' enough to make this. People like that ... shouldn't be parents. But apparently one of their kids is smarter than them, so it's not hopeless. Granted, now I'm just bashing people I don't know, over one tiny aspect... this poster may actually take a lot of offense to that... after all, I don't know the "too old to waste money on cartoons" people... but heck... I think it'd take something impressive to surprise me. Or maybe I just have too much confidence in my image of people (though if you've been paying attention, you'd draw the conclusion that people who believe in social norms like that are going to conform to easily concludable (bad termenology!) images anyway...). Actually, this makes me think of something from a few months back that odds are anyone reading this (at least when it goes up) will remember... Because really, why should I be critical of those that motivate and build someone's life toward something, especially if they aren't crazy abusive freaks? This would eventually lead to criticizing someone else's views, anyway, and that's quite the opposite of open-mindedness. Unless, of course, it's not views I'm attacking so much as "I've always been taught this, so why question it...". *pantpant*. ... If not for the fact that it'd border on dishonesty, I'd edit out the cursing. T.T. Somebody save me... :( Current Mood: irate (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 25th, 2007
3:45 pm	*sigh* Well, on the one hand, the semester is... umm... come to think of it, hasn't been on for very long... *ahem* _anyway_, no academic disasters just yet. But ... really... I don't see much room for them, unless I continue to mysteriously forget to check web CT for Japanese (which, since assignments have become due on Saturdays instead of Fridays, I don't see happening... because usually I remember like in the car on the way to Japanese... so I might hurry up and do it after class provided there isn't a huge attention derailment between there and back). Lezee, I've also found what I think I need to use java graphics and sound and keyboard input and possibly even realtime-ness without too much explosive multi-object-ness. On the one hand, java is designed for portability and reusability and stuff... but... frame > component > polygon > affine transform > eventhandler > System.spinHeadInWeirdShape(JFrame.KILL_PROGRAMMER_WITH_INSANITY);... Yeah. Fortunately that's not as necessary as my ventures into the java website would have me believe; mainly due to the intended purposes of the procedures, I guess. Still, affine transform... wah? Why can't we just have a polygon.rotate or something? -.-. Speaking of which, I need to teach my CShapes to rotate (Because yes, I went and made my own shape class... but it isn't much other than a few extra methods and cheapenings of the Polygon class... and that turns out to be useful for my models object, which once again is probably unnecessary and a waste-of-time style ripoff, but it makes my life easier. ^^.). 'course, what does this mean? Absolutely nothing, because I. Can't. Focus. On. Anything! Well, ok. Focus, I can. I can not only think about it all day, but can figure out exactly what I need to do. But when I try to actually do it... nothing happens... maybe I'll start something, but will stop for... some... reason. It' not applying to homework anymore, thankfully, but still as evil as ever on my own projects. (Which is why I get mega pissed when people yell at me with the distraction card--distraction? Distraction I disagree!!!). But the fact taht I come here to rant about it is an indicator of something. I think I noticed today when I ent to the cafeteria while thinking on things... it was probably to avoid actually working on it. On the one hand, when it's in your head it looks a lot easier and more perfect than it will proby turn out... but on the other, I have no reason to not actually make stuff! I mean, I made a freaking arrayList for javascrpt, and now I've got sound and graphics tools for java, and my literary skills aren't mega crap (But I'm certainly no J.K. Rwling), and goodness knows I could actually do things to benefit mankind in addition to just amusing myself with these creations... but nothing gets done! Why? (And I find that I make more "typoes" when typing in IE7... like... letters randomly disappear from my words. Though that doesn't mean all of my mistakes are IE7's fault... It's still a pain to just set the freaking mood icon... -.-. I don't even care about that all that much.). (Yes, I still hate IE7 with a passion. Hate sucks. :'(. ) It's a lot easier to talk about things than actually deal with them. Why? Why can't that change? How is it changed? (Oh, my head's up my butt, huh? Then why the bloody heck am I not at least entertained?) (not that nothing's my fault, I just have no idea what the heck's going on or how to do anything about it...) *Sigh*. I need a means of cleaning the air in this room consistently. -.-. Open window is nice... but then the occasional smoker will walk by (morons) or maybe there willbe a random barbecue outside... or it's really humid. Yeah, I went outside before 4:30 this morning (Hmm... that's almost 12 hours ago), and it was still hot and humid... late September. When I talk about restraining myself, it's a good indicator I'm doing something just as stupid as what I'm trying not to do... -.- (Too many emoticons...) And, umm, in theory the easiest of the Jeqo related projects for me to work on ... LC? I think I have a means of making it simple enough that I an actually work on it, but since that didn't happen today, I'm not so sure... In terms of writing... probably more of the Taoescripty-ness will come. I'm hoping to revamp the Members' area (again) so IE7 will stop being evil to it and it will be more user friendly... but I kinda want the customization to be more awesome, and... I've realized I have a pretty small amount of content there. ^^. But no worries, I guess. I do need to fix those broken links to audio stuff though. And the podcasts from last year have been taken down from putfile... I guess from lack of views. Been working on a relaunch, but the pilot attempt came off really really noobish (and... well... just annoying) and had like two hours worth of stuff to edit with very little good coming of any of that splicing. So yeah... I think my next site update will coincide with a podcast relaunch and some version of DLE going online, but I'm really not sure about any of that. Though I do think this could lead to actually taking Jeqo and Firebird (Wolfstar's stuff) somewhere, so... stay tuned! (And for reference... http://planetseva.com =D) Dangit, I want what's in the cafeteria tonight, but I'm not hungry... and I doubt it'd turn out healthy, anyway. Current Mood: discontent (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 23rd, 2007
12:58 pm	Back from IT So, the day before time to head back to school, I was in my email of all places, and a drivecleaner thing pops up. Ok, I'm not going to push anything on that... I go to the control panel to try to shut off the wirless connection so I can deal with it without threat of more invaders, and the computer acts freezy. And ... then I do the reset, and it stops starting up. So, we get here and take it to IT. THey say they'll haev to reinstall the OS, but my files will be fine. Except for internet explorer, apparently. Because they felt they needed to update to IE7, which... well... pisses me off on so many levels. Microsoft has this bad habit of updating things so that you have to update Jaws to use it. And jaws has a bad habit of having updates that are less usable for what I need than the previous versions, but love the new IE of the week. Let's see, I can't read forms properly, and when I"m looking at filefolders and listviews, I can't read the currently selected item... I have to do effing bakflips to turn on my javascript stuff... and various things I think are screwing up the way things run... It'd be nice if I could choose which to use. But it looks like the update process replaces IE6 with IE7. And I effing hate IE7 already. Like, screaing like a pissed off blue laser commander while rolling around kicking and punching the air and desks and stuff while trying to load a ridiculously simple program that ... well... isn't worth the bs. Gah. I'm so sick of forced updates. I don't care how great the new versions are for you; that doesn't mean they're good for me! I use an effing screen reader!That doesn't like Proboards version 4 (freezes every couple sconds on the main pages for no reason) or IE7 or firefox or... GARAHRARHAHAGAHFHARAGYGY!!!!!!!! "Just be happy you're computer's working again!". You see, ... ... I don't really care... I'd rather have just found a way to copy all of the files to some other devic and gone from there. In fact... I might just wind up doing that, somehow. That... I'm not really sure of yet. But yah, "windows internet explorer"... ... that's... like water torture hearing that. And another thing... I can't view folders and do web-ness in the same window? It has to open a new one? And I can't read the bloody forms right... I mean... GAH! I had to set echo to 'all' to get jaws to read the character changes in my dbz rpg intro from last year. I mean, that's... not... a big thing, but ... it's significantly troublesome. Especially when we get to other things like... login forms... and... stuff. So, let's end on this note, because I'm complaining and probably in a really stupid forget about it in a week way. Juno: Go to hell for having such cruddy advertisers. I mean seriously, you call yourself an email /internet provider, and yet... you give me ads from the spyware cartel? Sickening! IE7: Die and give me IE6 back. IT: I'd appreciate it if you'd ask before updating things. Update and fix are not synonymous. >.<. I don't want all of this crap on the window... and... what the heck is this feed crap? Do you have built-in podcast services now? GAH!!!!!!! Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)